I shared this image earlier this morning and for every single person that has contributed in any way, along the way, we each know we have shared in so many moments.
Kynren Season 4 finale is here, tonight we deliver what is our 60th live show since this project came to fruitation in little old Bishop Auckland, and what a journey it has taken each of us all on.
Kynren has changed my life!
4 years ago I was drifting, working hard, but searching for something unknown and different, a sense of belonging.
And I found it, not just within Kynren and since then through all the other passions I’ve discovered that drive me on.
But I discovered it within myself, and it’s always been there, I just didn’t recognise my own self worth.
Now I do!
When I write, I write from my heart, I try and recapture moments and let my passion escape and leave it all on the page.
Today more than any other time I want to leave everything out on the page, as much as I intend to leave everything out on that stage for one final time this season.
4 years is a long time, but I recall so much of it, and it’s the moments we share through our own passions that lead us to remember.
I’ve written here so many times that Kynren is so much more than the spectacular show thousands watch every summer.
So much more, the only people who know are the ones who have taken part in this wonderful adventure with me.
Whether you have been here since day one, or you are a first season newbie.
Or like me, you have joined left and joined again x 2.
Or for every person that has left this project for many different reasons because life gets in the way or sadly some of our teammates are no longer with us.
We’ve all done this together.
I for one never forget them, some of which i never even met, but I still think fondly of them, because they believed and backed a project as much as I do.
I know when the fireworks light up the sky on tonight’s finale, and sky clears, each star that shines down on the Kynren stage will be a reminder of each of these people watching over us and continually leading the way.
In this moment I want to share something else, I want this post to reflect everything this project means not just to me, but the people who are involved or who have been involved.
I want to show you the passion, the insecurities, overwhelming pride, and I want to show you something that you may have missed.
This video was recorded on Kynren’s site 3 years ago, in this moment I think although hazy; December time.
It was a tree planting day, whereby volunteers could attend site with their families and plant a tree in various areas of the site and leave lasting memories and tributes to loved ones.
One month before this day, my whole world crashed all around me, and in the November of that year I was diagnosed with depression.
3 years on and with a lot of time, a new understanding of patience and recovery its like it never even happened.
But this video to me, for me, shows exactly how I was in that moment.
On that site, that day, I was lost, it rained, torrentially, I went to try and stay busy and occupy my mind and help.
But I was so lost, but didn’t want to go home, I didn’t even know if should stay, just being there in a moment of indecisiveness.
Watch the video, look at my eyes, you’ll see exactly what I see, it’s a reminder of how far I’ve personally come.
The video also shows an array of memories and moments, joy and laughter, and pride and passion from the Archers who speak on it.
I can see the pride and the passion that equates out of myself too.
Another reference I tend to use is’ Kynren has been a game changer’ not just in my life but in many.
I can’t speak for how and what reasons it may have given a positive response to other Archers, but I also know that it has.
Tonight is our 4th season finale, how four life changing years can seem so long ago but feel just like yesterday.
We all have our stories to share, we all remember different memories, but every time we arrive at Kynren we share the same moments.
And I couldn’t pick a better group of people to share it with.
Tonight breathe every moment in, run hard, do you what you do, and then listen for the roar!!!
Kynren you started as an unknown project and you’ve developed and grown into something that we are each proud to say we do this.
Archers enjoy your night, we’ll see you on the other side.