Well here we are, Friday 21st April, the long countdown since finding out back in January that I became a finalist in these National awards.
And it now all comes down to tonight.
In all honesty there are no nerves, or certainly no nerves at the moment, I’ve done everything that I can do.
The pressure is well and truly off, even if it was ever on in the first place.
I’m not going to lie, now the day is here, everyone wants to win it badly, everyone has hope, and everyone deserves it too, and I’m very much no different.
But will I win?
Probably not, and I know friends, family, fellow volunteers, have been trying to tell me I might, and yes I might, you just never know.
But in all honesty I feel in my heart and my head that it will come as a surprise, and for me an unexpected, but welcome shock if it were to happen.
The objective of these awards has never been the recognition, but has been totally humbling to receive it in the process, one I thank every person who had taken the time to vote for.
One thing some won’t know, I mentioned last weekend, I have got depression, when I first entered these awards I did it for two reasons.
One to raise more exposure for the Kynren project and to hopefully attract more visitors to Bishop Auckland.
That’s always been my primary objective, and I already know that I’ve achieved that target.
The promotion work I’ve done over the last 4 months has been second to none.
Not has it been very important to promote the Kynren project, alongside myself, but it has been important to me to help, support and promote the UK Blog Awards and build up further awareness of them too.
I head to London today knowing that the impact I’ve made with regular promotion, radio and television interviews have placed me in a position that might just trigger that all important reactions tonight of:
‘What is Kynren?’
And as volunteers we already know that when each of these individuals type in their search bars on Google, the word ‘Kynren’ and watch the preview video of last year’s show they cannot fail to be impressed, because as the title goes it is Epic.
If you’ve not heard about it before, click here: https://www.facebook.com/Elevenarches/videos/1227949433938702/
Prepare to have you minds blown, with a fantastic spectacle before your own eyes, brought to you by hundreds of volunteers, let the music capture your attention and enjoy our journey.
The 1,500 strong volunteers can’t wait to welcome you and deliver 17 stunning performances this Summer.
The second point I’d like to talk about is me, not this blog, not the Kynren project, not the promotion, not the awards, just me.
What a lot of people won’t be aware of, as mentioned above I have depression, I don’t hide behind it, one of the most important steps that I acknowledge has been the process of being honest with myself and open to everyone, and to not hide behind it any longer.
When I entered these awards, it came about by chance, I’d just been diagnosed with depression, I was in a low, dark depressional cycle, I happened to stumble upon it on a Google search.
On the day I searched it, the closing date for entries was the end of that week, I entered based on two reasons, the one above which I’ve described and quite frankly my real objective, but two, to try and give myself some focus, some clarity, something to concentrate on.
And it’s worked, I don’t need to win tonight, yes it would be nice, I’ll be high on emotions if I do, but I don’t need to have my name called out tonight, because I’ve far achieved all I ever needed too.
Both for the Kynren project and for my wellbeing.
Becoming a finalist has strengthened me, it’s reaffirmed that I can write, my content is good, I have an ability to put the reader in the words, and when they are reading they feel they are the ones living it.
As the quote goes that’s exactly how I feel I write, lots of readers have commented the same too, it’s sparked an interest to learn more, some have gone on to volunteer, others have booked tickets, the important thing is I captured the attention of many people Worldwide who may not have heard about it.
If you are attending tonight, please ask me, that’s what I’m here for.
I’m now part of a blogging community, which is rich in talent, that is supportive and helpful, that is fun and meaningful, and tonight is a celebration of what this industry is all about.
Fast growing, impact hitting in all topics and overall extremely worthwhile for both the writer, the brands and the charitable causes too.
No matter what happens tonight, I’m here for the ride, I’m here for the experience, and to take it all in, I’m here to meet new friends and make plenty more in the process.
And a final note goes out to all the other 258 finalists, in all categories, Congratulations and the very best of luck, we are all deserving finalists but the real winner tonight is ‘Blogging’
Raising more awareness of the true impact it can offer in our society.
Good Luck and I’ll see you all tonight.